John 3:31 He must become greater; I must become less- John the Baptist.
I can't wait til Friday. I have a full day of rest. All I want to do is escape life and relax with the Lord. When was the last time you spent time with the Lord. The kind of time where you make it more important than anything else.
Love the Lord
Chew on that peace
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Monday, October 25, 2010
The running Pi
When you just need to run. Running leads to great feelings. It also lets out some not so great feelings.
Our bodies align with our heart(soul) in interesting ways. What I mean to say is, when I personally cannot put into words what my heart wants to say, I am drawn to just run or some other sort of activity. The freedom of being free to run helps the heart release the tension of "speechless" syndrome.
So where do I run? I know it is to the end of the block or until I get tired, but as a Christian: "where do I run?" I read: "a mark of a mature christian is when in time of struggle you run toward God and not from Him". Many times my struggles have resulted in me running to drugs, alcohol, dip, working out, girls, etc. Now I see how eternal these things are, haha. Wow, not one of things have helped me grow, not to mention all the trouble most of those things have gotten me in.
Now I know to run to God. But, how does God come in the moment of struggle as it is happening. ex. I am drunk and my girlfriend wants to have sex. I know drinking is wrong but here I am drunk. Now, my girlfriend is pressuring me to have sex. How can I run to God. Tough situation.
I believe God wants the best for Himself. The best for Himself is going to be the best for ourselves. The thing you must realize is the best for God is not on the same level as what is best for us. This is where we trust God is good. The answer as to what to do is: "what will please God". We can't think of ourselves as the who should be put first. God is who we should want to put first. John the Baptist said: he must become greater, I must become less. John 3:30
tough pi to swallow and run with.
we weren't made to run alone; join with each other. It will be beautifully messy.
Chew on that peace
Our bodies align with our heart(soul) in interesting ways. What I mean to say is, when I personally cannot put into words what my heart wants to say, I am drawn to just run or some other sort of activity. The freedom of being free to run helps the heart release the tension of "speechless" syndrome.
So where do I run? I know it is to the end of the block or until I get tired, but as a Christian: "where do I run?" I read: "a mark of a mature christian is when in time of struggle you run toward God and not from Him". Many times my struggles have resulted in me running to drugs, alcohol, dip, working out, girls, etc. Now I see how eternal these things are, haha. Wow, not one of things have helped me grow, not to mention all the trouble most of those things have gotten me in.
Now I know to run to God. But, how does God come in the moment of struggle as it is happening. ex. I am drunk and my girlfriend wants to have sex. I know drinking is wrong but here I am drunk. Now, my girlfriend is pressuring me to have sex. How can I run to God. Tough situation.
I believe God wants the best for Himself. The best for Himself is going to be the best for ourselves. The thing you must realize is the best for God is not on the same level as what is best for us. This is where we trust God is good. The answer as to what to do is: "what will please God". We can't think of ourselves as the who should be put first. God is who we should want to put first. John the Baptist said: he must become greater, I must become less. John 3:30
tough pi to swallow and run with.
we weren't made to run alone; join with each other. It will be beautifully messy.
Chew on that peace
Sunday, October 17, 2010
The Pi that leads
Be a leader.
I was challenged to be the same kind of leader off the soccer field as I am on the soccer field. Naturally, on the soccer field I am loud, intense, inspiring, passionate, and full of joy. This is a result of devoting practically all of my life to the game of soccer. I know soccer inside and out, not to say I don't have anything to learn.
Off the soccer field, I can have a different style of leadership than on the field. I have been compartmentalizing my life. What if I meshed them together. I knew soccer by playing soccer, watching soccer, coaching soccer, reading soccer. Let's put this in living a Christ life and leading others to do the same. I will always learn more through Christ, but if I model Christ, watch Christ, teach Christ, read about Christ most certainly I will be able to lead a Christ life and have the confidence to bring others with me.
My prayer is a heart to know Christ, the courage to step in faith to stand firm in his name. I like to avoid conflict off the soccer field, but love the contact in soccer. May in grace I change that to honor Christ as a MAN of God. I don't mean to be a bible pusher but a tenacious man living firm in his Faith in Christ.
1 Thess 2:8
New verse that has been on my heart and mind
chew on that peace
I was challenged to be the same kind of leader off the soccer field as I am on the soccer field. Naturally, on the soccer field I am loud, intense, inspiring, passionate, and full of joy. This is a result of devoting practically all of my life to the game of soccer. I know soccer inside and out, not to say I don't have anything to learn.
Off the soccer field, I can have a different style of leadership than on the field. I have been compartmentalizing my life. What if I meshed them together. I knew soccer by playing soccer, watching soccer, coaching soccer, reading soccer. Let's put this in living a Christ life and leading others to do the same. I will always learn more through Christ, but if I model Christ, watch Christ, teach Christ, read about Christ most certainly I will be able to lead a Christ life and have the confidence to bring others with me.
My prayer is a heart to know Christ, the courage to step in faith to stand firm in his name. I like to avoid conflict off the soccer field, but love the contact in soccer. May in grace I change that to honor Christ as a MAN of God. I don't mean to be a bible pusher but a tenacious man living firm in his Faith in Christ.
1 Thess 2:8
New verse that has been on my heart and mind
chew on that peace
Monday, October 4, 2010
Old Pi
I turned 24 a week from today. I am getting old and I learn life changes as you get older. Duh... God is focusing my eyes on some changes he knows is best for me.
Leadership: It is time to step into where God has placed me. I have been beating around the bush with inviting roommates to live with me because of the fear of living with new people in a beautifully messy Kingdom (this makes sense if you read my previous post). The thought: "do they know what they are signing up for; do I know what they are signing up for" Oh Satan and your stupid spirit. God is telling me to trust him, draw near to him, delight myself in him (Ps 37:4). I must hold dear his Word, for the older and more responsibilities he gives me the more accountable I must be in his Kingdom. His word is truth, my word is vapor.
I am a model to others. I best be submitting to God, for those who look to me better not see me, but God living in me. How do: i spend my time; spend my money; use my talents; behave towards Kristine (beautiful girlfriend); love friends and family; react to injustice?
Oh do I need to kneel at God's feet. I cannot do anything by myself for myself hates the light. I am wicked at heart. But Christ living in me sheds the light. May it be seen as God getting the glory. John 3:20-21
How do you like that Peace
p.s. sorry for the spaghetti thinking-it was a bit messy
Leadership: It is time to step into where God has placed me. I have been beating around the bush with inviting roommates to live with me because of the fear of living with new people in a beautifully messy Kingdom (this makes sense if you read my previous post). The thought: "do they know what they are signing up for; do I know what they are signing up for" Oh Satan and your stupid spirit. God is telling me to trust him, draw near to him, delight myself in him (Ps 37:4). I must hold dear his Word, for the older and more responsibilities he gives me the more accountable I must be in his Kingdom. His word is truth, my word is vapor.
I am a model to others. I best be submitting to God, for those who look to me better not see me, but God living in me. How do: i spend my time; spend my money; use my talents; behave towards Kristine (beautiful girlfriend); love friends and family; react to injustice?
Oh do I need to kneel at God's feet. I cannot do anything by myself for myself hates the light. I am wicked at heart. But Christ living in me sheds the light. May it be seen as God getting the glory. John 3:20-21
How do you like that Peace
p.s. sorry for the spaghetti thinking-it was a bit messy
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Pi in Heaven
I wonder what Pie in Heaven will taste like. Will everything taste amazing or do we uniquely have different taste for different foods. I hate cottage cheese but will cottage cheese in heaven taste like pizza does on Earth, at least good pizza.
Seeking God and living out his will through the guidance of the Spirit is Beautifully Messy. BM (Beautifully Messy) is a new favorite saying depicting the kingdom of Heaven on Earth. Beautiful in the sense of living how God intended, with Him/how Jesus lived. Isn't that the reason why he sent his Son, so we may be right with God and have communion with Him Rom 3:21-22; John 3:16. Messy in the sense that we, Mankind, are on Earth. We have a sin nature Rom 3:12. These clash hardcore, having a sin nature and living with God. The joy of living with God is amazing and gives Hope to the hopeless. I love God, He is good. He is the master planner. Pro 3:5
My life is living out a beautiful mess of following God. I just taught over the Blind Man and the Rich Young ruler in Mark 10. I want to be the Blind Man by far. He comes first in the Kingdom of Heaven. He is crying out for Mercy to Jesus, Son of David-the messiah-anointed one-the Savior (where is faith is place in). His trust in God is beautiful, especially in his Messy begging life. He wanted God to fill his life. As opposed to the Rich young Ruler who could not give up the wealth he had to follow God.
I love Jesus for showing the same love to each person. It was a different Love, tough truth for the Rich Man and servant love to the blind man.
God is revealing more and more of His Kingdom to me; the ride I am on in walking in faith towards living according to the Kingdom is Beautifully Messy. I would not want it any other way.
Take a bite of that heavenly peace
Seeking God and living out his will through the guidance of the Spirit is Beautifully Messy. BM (Beautifully Messy) is a new favorite saying depicting the kingdom of Heaven on Earth. Beautiful in the sense of living how God intended, with Him/how Jesus lived. Isn't that the reason why he sent his Son, so we may be right with God and have communion with Him Rom 3:21-22; John 3:16. Messy in the sense that we, Mankind, are on Earth. We have a sin nature Rom 3:12. These clash hardcore, having a sin nature and living with God. The joy of living with God is amazing and gives Hope to the hopeless. I love God, He is good. He is the master planner. Pro 3:5
My life is living out a beautiful mess of following God. I just taught over the Blind Man and the Rich Young ruler in Mark 10. I want to be the Blind Man by far. He comes first in the Kingdom of Heaven. He is crying out for Mercy to Jesus, Son of David-the messiah-anointed one-the Savior (where is faith is place in). His trust in God is beautiful, especially in his Messy begging life. He wanted God to fill his life. As opposed to the Rich young Ruler who could not give up the wealth he had to follow God.
I love Jesus for showing the same love to each person. It was a different Love, tough truth for the Rich Man and servant love to the blind man.
God is revealing more and more of His Kingdom to me; the ride I am on in walking in faith towards living according to the Kingdom is Beautifully Messy. I would not want it any other way.
Take a bite of that heavenly peace
Saturday, September 4, 2010
When you get Pi in the face
Wow, my heart has been turning in all sorts of directions in the past hour. Not to mention the last week. The beginning of the hour I was listening to a sermon by David Platt on disciple making. At the end, David was telling of stories of how small groups from his "faith family" have been living out the gospel tangibly without any planning of the leaders of the Church. The small groups were compelled to share the love of Christ and they did it in the form of community (small groups). This brought me to tears to hear how believers were compelled without the direction of the pastor to reach out "to all nations". They just wanted to be Christ to others and wanted to do it with each other to foster growth and be even more like Christ. It is beautiful to know that people get the gospel and are living it out maturely with other believers.
The last part of this hour, my heart got wrenched in a different way. My mother called me to check up and see how things were going. Our conversation got going and the subject of money, income, and responsibilities came up. I began to see the reality of the situation. I am blessed to have parents willing and able to support me so much financially, but all good things must come to an end. My monthly income now is only enough to cover certain bills, rent, food, and gas. In order for me to pay for the others in the future I will have to change something in my life. It is what scares me right now. I do not know what to change.
God is showing me a lot about his Church and what it looks like outside of what America has made it. Wouldn't it be great to live with others, literal or non-literal, purposefully growing with each other to know God, and make the world a little more like His kingdom.
How do you like that Peace
SPLAT.
The last part of this hour, my heart got wrenched in a different way. My mother called me to check up and see how things were going. Our conversation got going and the subject of money, income, and responsibilities came up. I began to see the reality of the situation. I am blessed to have parents willing and able to support me so much financially, but all good things must come to an end. My monthly income now is only enough to cover certain bills, rent, food, and gas. In order for me to pay for the others in the future I will have to change something in my life. It is what scares me right now. I do not know what to change.
God is showing me a lot about his Church and what it looks like outside of what America has made it. Wouldn't it be great to live with others, literal or non-literal, purposefully growing with each other to know God, and make the world a little more like His kingdom.
How do you like that Peace
SPLAT.
Tuesday, July 6, 2010
In the life of Pi
It is July and the Sun is doing its job. Oregon is stubborn when it comes to heat. Stubbornness is a struggle in my life. Constantly I try to make life work out to what I see best. What is see best for my life should not be based on what I think. So much hurt, pain, struggle, tears have been shed because life has not worked out the way I think best for it.
Some challenging concepts/ideas and conversations have shown me my humanness (imperfect or sin nature). To be born again: no way can being born again mean you are the same as before. I am born again, yet my life shows a contradiction. I am not at peace with life. God does not control all of my life.
Just yesterday I took a step back and realized this in the moment. I called Kristine yesterday and found out she was watching a movie with friends. I immediately was hurt, because I was not informed earlier and I felt left out of her life. A lot of selfish thoughts entered my head and I did not know how to react to her on the phone. Thankfully I did not say too much and put my foot in my mouth. After hanging up, I prayed. I knew what I was feeling was sin. I had bitterness in my heart and I was disgusted with it. God showed me much more when I was in prayer with Him. Kristine was honest. I cannot ask for more. Dropping everything and trying to find a way to appease me would not be a healthy relationship.
My prayer is the Spirit would continue to work in me. I do not want my own self to get in the way: aka sin. If I was to live by the Bible, what would it look like? Is the way I think of Church the way it is portrayed in the Bible? Or is the way I think of Church based on how I have always been exposed to it?
No wonder Nicodemus was so confused. Surely one cannot enter into a mother's womb a second time to be born again. John 3. I feel like Nicodemus and ask that question "How can I be born again or what does that look like?" I am on the journey of living a born again life. Sounds messy: if it is anything like coming out of the womb a second time, then it must be messy....that was joke.
pi is messy
Some challenging concepts/ideas and conversations have shown me my humanness (imperfect or sin nature). To be born again: no way can being born again mean you are the same as before. I am born again, yet my life shows a contradiction. I am not at peace with life. God does not control all of my life.
Just yesterday I took a step back and realized this in the moment. I called Kristine yesterday and found out she was watching a movie with friends. I immediately was hurt, because I was not informed earlier and I felt left out of her life. A lot of selfish thoughts entered my head and I did not know how to react to her on the phone. Thankfully I did not say too much and put my foot in my mouth. After hanging up, I prayed. I knew what I was feeling was sin. I had bitterness in my heart and I was disgusted with it. God showed me much more when I was in prayer with Him. Kristine was honest. I cannot ask for more. Dropping everything and trying to find a way to appease me would not be a healthy relationship.
My prayer is the Spirit would continue to work in me. I do not want my own self to get in the way: aka sin. If I was to live by the Bible, what would it look like? Is the way I think of Church the way it is portrayed in the Bible? Or is the way I think of Church based on how I have always been exposed to it?
No wonder Nicodemus was so confused. Surely one cannot enter into a mother's womb a second time to be born again. John 3. I feel like Nicodemus and ask that question "How can I be born again or what does that look like?" I am on the journey of living a born again life. Sounds messy: if it is anything like coming out of the womb a second time, then it must be messy....that was joke.
pi is messy
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